Soon I will have to say Goodbye to My 12 yr old Baby girl
When my Son was about 11 he brought this darling little baby home. I was shocked to see that she was Siamese.
A lady in our apartment complex was giving away free kittens and this was the only kitten from the litter that looked like her.
It was if God had listened and gave her to me. I had been wanting a Siamese cat for awile. I had already owned a half siamese, he is tiger striped with the gorgeous blue eyes.
When I saw this little kitten I couldnt put her down. We decided to name her, Sky. we soon learned that she played fetch and went crazy when you wadded up paper and threw it. She would run and get it and jump on the bed to bring right back. It was hilarious and people were amazed to see it.
Sky got me through many rough times just being bu my side and her purring would put me to sleep everynight. I went through the empty nest syndrome when my Son moved out and had kids of his own. Hes now 23.
I held on tight to my Sky even more after my Son was gone and living his life.
About three weeks ago Sky got out of my apartment Im not sure how she did this. . .I live on the second floor. I wandered around the neighborhood all night long looking for her. All I could do was cry and walk. I went to the pound and she wasnt there. I asked neighbors and they had not seen her. I posted flyers with a reward and when I was hanging the last poster (in our mail room) there was another poster that read,"Found Cat, fat or pregnant." Black and tan. I knew someone could mistake the deep choclate for black. and the fat part sounded like my Sky. I called the number and left a message and told the lady my apt. number. About 15 minutes later she was knocking on my door and I showed her a picture of my Sky. She said that was her. I was so happy, so so so happy. I got her back and paid the reward.
It was like I had gotten her for the first time. I couldnt put her down, couldnt stop hugging her, couldnt stop kissing her. A close call. . .
Last Saturday Sky came into the bedroom and I knew something wasnt right. she circled around and put hung her head to the floor. I got up and got her. Her eyes were spinning as if she were dizzy. She acted like she couldnt see me, her pupils were huge and glazed over. I wasnt sure what to do. My intial thought was that she had been poisioned, that somehow she ate or licked up something that was toxic. I took her to her water bowl and cleaned it out and pured in fresh bottled water. She didnt want any but then staggered over to her food bowl and started eating. I thought that was the strangest thing because most animals will not eat if something is making them sick or if something is wrong. So I thought it couldnt be that bad if she was eating. I kept a close eye on her everday. she would get better and then worse. Staggering, lethargic, eyes glazed, couldnt see hardly anything. I took her to the vet on Wedseday because it was clear she wasnt getting better.
He did a physical exam, a heartworm test, and complete bloodwork. He called me to say he found nothing. At this point Sky was not walking and had 2 seizures. She would fall over on her side and her legs would stick straight out. The seizures would last but 20 seconds but they were terrifying to watch.
The vet said he could send me to a specialist that would do a MRI on her. Three thousand dollars. . .
I was laid off on Feb 3 and this was not an option. I did research after research on the internet and everything pointed to brain tumors/neuological problems. One lady had said she spent 2800 and still didnt know what was wrong with her cat.
In the meantime the Dr. has prescribed pretizone and said it will help but it will only be temporary. The pretizone relieves swelling if there are tumors, but after awhile it will no longer be effective. She seems to be doing a little better. . . she is no longer staggering, but barely moves. She does not jump on anything anymore, will not come to me, has stopped purring and just stares blankly most of the time. She is eating a little and drinking water but when I hold her I can not turn her on her back or she will start to have a seizure.
Its at this point that Im asking myself, am I doing this for Sky or am I doing this for myself. Because I cant let go. I even went on the, ask a vet site "PetMD" and paid 18.00 for a 2nd opinion. He said eveything points to brain tumors.
Im so heartbroke and torn to pieces . . .I cant imagine waking up and not seeing her gorgeous blue eyes. It is already killing me that she has stopped purring. I look at her and my Sky has diminished. . .she is not the same. I dont want her to suffer.
When I give her the pretizone I wonder if she thinks its me making her sick with these things I keep shoving down her throat. I also wonder if she got out somehow 3 weeks ago because she knew she was dying. Im sorry I know this is a horrible thing to read. . .If your still reading- thank you. I know one thing. . Im hooked on the breed for life. I had wanted to breed her but she had a uterous infection when she was about 2 yrs old and they removed all her female parts. I have always been a cat person and have always had a cat. I've always said I will never be without a cat in my home, I now have to change that to, "I will never be without a siamese cat in my home." As I type this she is laying behind my computer chair. . .balled up. I dont know how many days I have left with her. . . but will cherish every single one and thank God that I had 12 years with her.